the pain called change ...

the pain i felt when you left me was crazy. i never knew pain could be so real. i never knew pain could be so tough, i never knew pain could be so ...... painful. i guess im starting to leaf thru the many different kind of pains that we have. you have that pain where your heart hurts. i literally feel it. when you sit by yourself and you cant stop the tears, no your whimpering your not out of breath you sit very still actually and the tears just keep coming and you feel your heart breaking.
you have that pain that makes you cry uncontrollably, like your chest is hurting your eyes are swollen your head is killing you, and your just so hurt. you have the pain that comes upon notification, thats the killer to me. because i try to act "as if" like hey im "independent" im beautiful ... im "poppin" (hmmmmmmm) ... but when i see you with the next i feel it, that lump comes up in my throat and it hurts to swallow. when im alone and i think about you ... i cry ... when i pass a place we used to go to ... i hurt ....... i never knew that you could be in so much pain. i been over the whole oooooh no matter how much you do for someone they always keep the one that been there and held them down (male/female) because honestly ..... the ones that love you the most tend to be a little more .... "liable to hurt you" and ummm so can you say "selfish" ... yeah selfish ... because the ones you "love the most" ... sometimes feel like your always gonna be there so ... anything goes right .... no wrong .... its called change .... just own up to it whenever your ready .... and be prepared to face one of those pains ... especially the pain of change ...